Monday, July 17, 2006
GOLD-our break through...
*sigh* dunno wad's wrong wif me this few daes....i kip feeling left out...i dun feel like i'm a sodarian anymore..i dun even think i'm alive! but no big deal wad...no one cares if i live or not...after all, like i said b4, i'm juz a piece of dirt...i'm juz too stressed.... academically,mentally....i'm hurt and i dunno how to recover.... is dere sth wrong wif me? i kip getting oversensitive abt things...ya la ya la, i'm self pitying again but seriously, hu cares?! no one! so i dun give a bluddy damn!*sigh* wad to do??? i'm hopeless! i kip thinking on de dark side of stuff...SHE, who used to be my gd friend, hu listens to my problems, is now... i dunno how to describe her....i mean like she doesn't care abt me much now...i juz silently follow behind THEM...i doubt they would ever notice me anyway... i sense dat i'm jealous but again, HU CARES! u guys dun even care wad..wad's de point...i'm juz hopeless la okae?!!! *moans* gimme a break...i really need one...i wanna smile again....smiling makes me happy...but i'm so not...*sigh*
NOTHING EVER LASTS FOR ME...NOT EVEN FRIENDSHIP...
FRIENDS HU MAKE ME CRY R NOT WORTH IT...ARE U?
*sigh* dunno wad's wrong wif me this few daes....i kip feeling left out...i dun feel like i'm a sodarian anymore..i dun even think i'm alive! but no big deal wad...no one cares if i live or not...after all, like i said b4, i'm juz a piece of dirt...i'm juz too stressed.... academically,mentally....i'm hurt and i dunno how to recover.... is dere sth wrong wif me? i kip getting oversensitive abt things...ya la ya la, i'm self pitying again but seriously, hu cares?! no one! so i dun give a bluddy damn!*sigh* wad to do??? i'm hopeless! i kip thinking on de dark side of stuff...SHE, who used to be my gd friend, hu listens to my problems, is now... i dunno how to describe her....i mean like she doesn't care abt me much now...i juz silently follow behind THEM...i doubt they would ever notice me anyway... i sense dat i'm jealous but again, HU CARES! u guys dun even care wad..wad's de point...i'm juz hopeless la okae?!!! *moans* gimme a break...i really need one...i wanna smile again....smiling makes me happy...but i'm so not...*sigh*
NOTHING EVER LASTS FOR ME...NOT EVEN FRIENDSHIP...
FRIENDS HU MAKE ME CRY R NOT WORTH IT...ARE U?
what we could have been, 3:01 PM.
