YAY!
TOMORROW IS LABOUR DAY!
BUT I'LL BE KEEPING MYSELF BUSY.
XD

things to do:
waking up at 7am to run 3km!
baking PEANUT KISS COOKIES for my dearest friends! :D
STUDY STUDY STUDY physics, chem and bio.!
then to PS with my mummy to shop!
(oh no, PS has Saybons Crepes, Tako Pachi Balls, Pizza Hut and Secret Recipe! STUPID TEMPTATIONS.)

I LOVE TEMPTING FLORENCE WITH YUMMY FOODS SHE CAN'T RESIST.
TEEHEE.
:DD


omg.
i think im becoming like isabella swan too.
i almost bumped into two bicycles today while sms-ing.
OH MY TIAN.

HAPPY HAPPY!
i baked chocolate cappucino cheesecake today!
my hand was damn pain after i creamed the mixture with a wooden spoon for like one hour.
BUT IT LOOKS AND SMELLS NICE!
YAY!
i can only try it after 12 hours which is TOMORROW.
SAD.

and flo wants to come to my house to try it.
she says she is stalking me and knows where i live.
FLORENCE IS A STALKER. BEWARE.
hahahaha!
kennasai brownie who keeps laughing at my dumbness and stupidity.
:DD

I LOVE JANE!
she is so patient, teaching me how to solve rubiks cube.
haha!
then some parts i dont get, so i asked vina.
VINA IS DAMN PRO.
she like solves it damn fast.
her record is like 57 seconds!
i can't even solve it in 57 minutes.
HAHAHAHA!

some photos!
(including sports day and outing with jieshi- A BIT slow, i know)



MY CHOCOLATE CAPPUCINO CHEESECAKE!
:D

with jieshi in the fitting room. hahaha!
((:

OCHACHA! mine is the one without milk.
:D

ME AND JIESHI!
<33

SPASTIC BELLA!
XD

OUR TONGUES! (bella is pointing to her tongue. HAHA!)
XDD

LEE SI MIN!
X)

i went to the library with florence today!
but before that something really stupid happened.
flo taught me how to take 966 back home which was supposedly faster than 31.
and we were like looking out for the bus when i asked her to look at a page from 8 days that i bought in school.
then some cedarian behind us shouted: EH MY BUS!
AND WE REALISED WE MISSED 966.
we totally just sat with our mouths open.

then when we got onto the next 966, there was this old woman who sat behind florence who kept burping.
and flo was trying super hard not to laugh.
hahaha!
:D

when we got to parkway,we ate waffle with dark chocolate ice cream from VENEZIA!
its 95% FAT-FREE.
SO NO GUILT THERE.
:DD
and as we were eating we kept seeing skinny, tall people with SUPER NICE LONG LEGS.
wth.

then we went to Borders to check out cake receipes we want to try out when i go to her house next week.
and we found this super thick book called: THE GOLDEN BOOK OF CHOCOLATE.
IT HAD UBER MANY CHOCOLATE RECIPES WHICH WE WERE TOTALLY DROOLING OVER.
wth.
we kept saying we don't mind giving up our studies to try out all the recipes from that book.
and we really don't mind being a baker all our life.
HAHAHA!
:DD

i can't wait to bake SUPER CHOCOLATE CAKE with her next week.
YUMYUM!
i'm baking Toblerone Cheesecake this week.
awaits awaits!
:DD



i'm sorry to have disappointed you.
i know i've let you down, with your high expectations from me.
i've thought over this for long enough and i feel this is for the best.
no, i KNOW its for the best.
for me and for the rest of them.

and i'm very sorry to the rest of you guys.
i know i've not been very cooperative and all.
thanks for being there.
i know you guys will make it.
me leaving does not make a difference.
i will support you guys in my heart.
once again, i'm sorry.

I GIVE UP.

I HATE THIS TWO-FACED WORLD.


fuck.
you don't even know what im going through inside.


i realise i can only count on my family and my true friends.
i can't trust anyone anymore.
i can't.
thanks to you.



i need adrenaline.

I FEEL AS IF I HAVE THROWN AWAY A WHOLE LOAD OF STRESS.

i'm feeling more pleasant and happy these few days.
WHICH IS GOOD.
cos it means the cheery me is coming back.
:DD


we have a new understudy!
RIZWANA!
she'll be in me and celeste's group.
so we shall work hard together!

and tmr is SPORTS DAY!
I THINK IM GOING TO DIE OF PANIC ATTACK.
im the first runner for csb and i heard some first runners are trackers.
DANG.
i got slow reaction time somemore okay!
then later i pull down the band how?
HOW?!
HOW?!

but anyway, we shall CHIONG TOGETHER!
Athirah, Queenie, Syahirah and Me!
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

i can't wait to go out with jieshi after bio test!
raffles city and amrina square have alot of YUM YUM and SHOP SHOP!
so im like starving myself these few days so that i can INDULGE for once when i go out with jieshi.
HEEE.



and yet i still don't know what seems to be bothering me so much.

strong on the outside, yet so fragile on the inside.


and i still broke down.

i didn't expect myself to be so weak.
and reaching my breaking point before i expected.
i guess i cracked.
everything inside just flowed out and i couldn't stop it.
i just couldn't hold back.


but it really felt great to let go.




im feeling much better now.
but im still drained out.
tired.



thank you to everyone who encouraged me.
im really really glad to have you guys there for me.
really.
(:

for you guys, i will stand strong.
and appear to be even when im on the verge of breaking down.

and i hope the dark clouds above my head blows away.
so that i can find my true happy self again.



(and i can continue loving my husbands. <3)

GIRL;

JIAYEE
sunshine and rainbows put smiles on my face. and i never underestimate the power of love.
.

SPEAK;