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Tuesday, January 26, 2010

hey guys!
wondering what i'm still doing at this hour? :P
i was reading a book called "The Happiness Trap" by Russ Harris and decided to share a little something.

The word “happiness” has two very different meanings. The common meaning of the word is “feeling good”. In other words, feeling a sense of pleasure, gladness, or gratification. We all enjoy these feelings, so it’s no surprise that we chase them. However, like all human emotions, feelings of happiness don’t last. No matter how hard we try to hold on to them, they slip away every time. A life spent in pursuit of those good feelings, is, in the long term, deeply unsatisfying. In fact, the harder we chase after pleasurable feelings, the more we are likely to suffer from anxiety and depression.

The other far less common meaning of happiness is “living a rich, full and meaningful life”. When we take action on the things that truly matter deep in our hearts, move in directions that we consider valuable and worthy, clarify what we stand for in life and act accordingly, then our lives become rich and full and meaningful, and we experience a powerful sense of vitality. This is some fleeting feeling- it is a profound sense of a life well-lived. And although such a life will undoubtedly give us many pleasurable feelings, it will also give us uncomfortable ones, such as sadness, fear and anger. This is only to be expected. If we live a full life, we will feel the full range of human emotions.
-excerpt from “The Happiness Trap” by Russ Harris

so that's just a little something to ponder over before i get to bed.
(:


and here are SOME UPDATES!

trip to the science centre with bella!


"ITS BIGGER THAN ME!"




ELECTRIC CHAIR!





Sleepover with Dorothy!



MAY YOU GUYS HAVE A PLEASANT WEEK AHEAD!
LOVE LOVE LOVE!
((:

what we could have been, 12:20 AM.
Saturday, January 16, 2010

fuck.
my life is taking a major turn.
i hate it when i have to cry almost everyday.
i ponder over why is it so hard to let go.
i beat myself up for making my loved ones worry.
this fucking sucks.
I HATE THIS SHIT.



i know this doesnt sound like the chirpy and cheery jiayee.
im sorry.
i just dont understand myself these days.
im being shut out from me.

what we could have been, 10:29 PM.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010

so i rushed back from penang in the morning yesterday to get my o level results.
well, let's just say im not very satisfied.
i definitely wished i had achieved better results.
but i guess i just have to be contented.
((:


the penang trip is summarised by photos!
LAZY LAZY ME.
overall it was a good trip; good food, good weather, great fun! (except not enough shopping)
:D










what we could have been, 2:14 PM.
Thursday, January 07, 2010

heading for penang tmr afternoon.
back on 11th jan, just in time to get results.
funny, i dont feel excited at all.


ugh, fuck this feeling.
hate such emotions.
FUCK.

what we could have been, 4:47 PM.
Sunday, January 03, 2010

2January 2010, Prom Night for the Invincible Class of 2009.
it was a glamorous evening.
everyone was dolled up and looking fabulous.

four years in Cedar, each year with new surprises, new experiences, and of course, new knowledge.((:
looking back, i see the changes in all of my friends, including myself.
changes not only in looks, but also in character.
we've really grown to become ladies; more mature and more confident.
no longer are we the ignorant and childish young kids four years ago;
its amazing to see how time really flies; and how everything evolves in front of your eyes.
the poise, the elegance; all showed that we've really grown up.

2 Jan 2010- definitely a night to remember.





what we could have been, 1:13 PM.
Friday, January 01, 2010

a brand new year is heading this way.
new expectations, new resolutions, new goals and targets.
interesting how time goes by and what seems like yeterday is now a thing of the past.
all i wish is to let go of the control im unwilling to.
the control that has caused me enough pain and caused my family enough heartbreak.
no longer shall it rip me apart from who im supposed to be.
its the last step; the step to make 2010 a whole new year full of laughter and happiness, not tears and sorrows; the step to find a self i shall always be comfortable in; and the step to being free from the metal chains clasping onto my wrists ever so tightly.
this is who i want to be; who i WILL be.

what we could have been, 9:46 AM.

GIRL;

JIAYEE
sunshine and rainbows put smiles on my face. and i never underestimate the power of love.
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SPEAK;

Exits
PAST;
CREDITS;
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